I’m sitting here . . . and I’m trying to push through moments, emotions and feelings that I have seem to have on a constant carousel.
I get an idea, a feeling – I jump for it.
I lose interest or it gets hard.
I get a new idea.
I lose interest.
Even reviewing my old blog posts, I can see the patterns and the waves. I start everything but finish nothing. Some days I’ll recommit and get back on track – but the carousel keeps on spinning.
A lot of the time, is it really just fear? Am I afraid of failing? So, I just give up before it can happen? Maybe I just lose the belief that I’m worth the effort?
I don’t want to say this time will be different right now, because it’s always the same.
But will this time be different?
Only time can tell, I guess.