Last month, I decided I was going to chase my dreams.
I spent this month researching and honestly, trying to find reasons to not follow through. Reasons why I shouldn’t. Reasons why I can’t. I know that they will always seep into my head as I continue on this journey – but at one point I decided to stop.
I wasn’t stopping to give up, but I wanted to stop creating a cloud of doubt.
A few weeks ago, I applied to National University and literally emailed my advisor a couple of days later to cancel my application.
That cloud of doubt was heavy and dense.
A couple of days ago, I went to meet my adviser and discuss my goals in person.
I resubmitted my application. I submitted my transcripts. I submitted a letter requesting provisional acceptance – I am transferring in with an incredibly low gpa (I think it’s about a 1.43, but I won’t know for sure until they matriculate me). I also, declared a major – which is is not nursing but my stepping stone.
I left my appointment incredibly giddy, scared and exhilarated.
I likely will not take my first course until July, but until that date I decided I will focus on organizing my life – work desk, my room, set up my upcoming study space, old documents, purge my closet, and figure out my finances.
If all goes according to plan, and I get accepted into the nursing program – I know that I will need to quit my job and become a full time student. They said the nursing schedule is Monday through Saturday from 8 am to ‘who knows’ pm. You can be set for an 6 hour clinical, but as in all healthcare, you might be let out early or be held there for another 6 hours.
I’m not sure where along the road I fell off my debt free journey but I know I will need to really focus on it so I can cut as much debt as I can before Nursing so that while nursing I will not only have less expenses but hopefully will have a comfort bubble to help me throughout.
I’m pretty sure I rambled through a lot of that. My mind started jumping with excitement about all the things I get to check off my list in anticipation.